6/1/07

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// prayer for ::

Just emailed my dad. Becoming closer to him thru emails.

I realised smth really sad...There are Christians (well I duno, but thats what they call themselves) who are always depressed and seldom happy, and there are non-Christians who live life everyday with fullness and gratitude, and I seldom see them unhappy. But somehow, they aren't saved.

"Sad Christian" should be an oxymoron. Really.

I mean, imagine. Someone dies for you, and you receive that with thanksgiving, but you live your life in depression, always with a reason to hate life. Kinda like an irony, right?

Sometimes when I look at life's circumstances and it feels as if I got absolutely nothing to thank God for, God gives me a reason to be grateful.

For example...one day I felt as though I was totally knocked down by exhaustion and loss of meaning in my work, but I felt determined to start the next day victorious. The next day I had work, for 12 hrs. Even worse than the day before.

The day started badly. Sales were soo bad that I was afraid I couldnt reach the daily sales target. I kept praying in tongues despite the fact that I had succumbed to the fact that I would fall short today.

Then Holy Spirit helped me to remember something that Michael said before, "God can still work His miracle at the 11th hour". So I believed.

And at EXACTLY the 11th hour of my work, before I was getting ready to clear up, God gave me a breakthrough. Sales came pouring in. I reached above and beyond my sales target. Even after I cleaned up and was ready to leave, there were still sales. He had given me two-fold of what I had needed, just because I believed.

Simple belief. Can bring forth miracles. I find more and more reasons to praise the Lord everyday.

So I feel sad when I see fellow brothers and sisters always wallowing in failures or keep dwelling on reasons to be upset instead of being full of gratitude and thanksgiving. How can one Christian be overwhelmed with breakthroughs and victories, while another is always sad and finding no meaning in life?

Both are Christians, so why the vast difference? Actually, this links back to what Pst Kong and Catherine always say how a simple change in mindset can actually bring forth breakthrough..

Right now I'm believing for financial breakthrough and cg breakthrough. I believe it can come to past for me. God really can do wonders. If he can do it for Moses and Shamgar, why cant He do it for us?